_changes in the house (change is in the house)
December 28, 2007
_anticipation (yves klein’s leap into the void)
December 19, 2007
it’s hard to be before. especially for me, instant-gratification-whore that i am. i think of the future me, the one who already knows how everything turned out. she’s probably laughing at my anxiety.
_inventory
December 14, 2007
(this is not a drawing of a. who is young and beautiful, whereas this lady is old and sad).
j. (who is young and beautiful and sad) tells me she feels like a ghost. says she feels like a guest in her own life. we’re in a cab on the way to the mall, where she can truly be happy. i want to make her happy.
r. is speaking of change. says he feels it slowly, like an avant garde movie. we’re sharing a semi flat tuborg, wrapped in a security blanket. i’m glad some things don’t change.
a. is back to point a. with s. once removed. it doesn’t seem to make any sense, but i can understand why he’s doing it.
j.j. is still an orange dot. i can wait.
_today
December 13, 2007
keep it short
keep it neat
personal
general
clear
coherent
allow myself to be
incoherent
unpopular
unloved
dishonest.
wait silently, someone will come
to pick things up right where you left off.
keep picking at that fucking hangnail till it bleeds.
_cenzored
December 12, 2007
procrastination + escapism = happiness
_no time for words
December 6, 2007
_found
December 5, 2007
1. in my bedroom. no idea what they open. dec. 5th.
2. 72nd & broadway, dec. 3rd.
3. newark airport, nov. 26th. to be spent in paris on dec. 14th.